School Life Season 4 "Junior"

episode 12 part 2

2007-03-24T11:49:00.000+08:00

episode 12
part 2
episode finale

A new problem came about...I received a yellow slip calling for my parents and Ms. Myrla and Ms. Annie wanna talk to them about my academic performance in Chem...the next day, my dad came and first talked with Ms. Myrla...she said that my final grade in Chem is 84...and my periodical result is 82%...which will disqualify me from the honor...then Ms. Annie came and discussed with my dad about my quizzes...I got a 0/20 in quiz 1 right?! [see previous episode]...and my other quizzes are passing but still low...so there...they have agreed that if I take a retest in quiz 1, my grade would reach 87 which is just right for an honor student...so I took the retest...my faith was tested here...I think I'm not gonna get perfect in this retest...is there a %Y that exceeds 100%?!...none right?!...and I got an impossible answer...

the next day...many peepz caught me crying so hard...I even cried in front of Ms. Galang and Ms. Rey...the only thing that left is to cry with blood in front of Sr. Guia...that's how hard I cried...but I was still hoping that I got perfect there...a miracle happened...Ms. Mhyn told me that I got perfect in the retest and my final average was still computed...

last Monday, Sr. Guia announced the Honor students...I got nervous and I cried again but Shayne and Patty's there...my Margaret family...and wow!!! What a miracle!!! Sr. Guia mentioned my name...I MADE IT TO THE HONOR!!!!...yes!!!

Yesterday was the recognition day...too glad that I made it to the honor...I would just like to thank everyone who was always there for me...Thank you iii-Elizabeth...your uncivilized attitudes has made me stronger...Thank you Nazario...I know it looks ironic to thank you...but even if you played with my heart, i still wanna thank you because I was challenged by it...studying with a broken heart was hard...but still...I survived and made it...Thanks to my friends...Ate Ai, Alvin, Kimmie, Denz and even Jayne...thank you in a way, you played a special part in my life...Thank you Ms. Annie...you were pressured in going to Australia but still...you gave me a chance to have the retest to make it...Thank you to my dear advisers...Ms. Mila, Ms. Celine and Ms. Mhyn....thanks for all your support...most especially thanks Ms. Mhyn...pinaglaban mo talaga ako para makapasok ako sa honor...thanks so much...together with Ms. Celine and Ms. Mila as well...Ms. Celine...thank you for fighting for me until the end...I wasn't able to make it when you were my adviser but look at me now...I made it...Thanks also to the rest of my teachers...in such a way, you have supported me...thanks so much...thanks also to my parents for their support...and of course, thanks to God Almighty...You never let me go in spite of my so many sins and in spite of my trials during the school year...Thanks to all of you

This isn't the end...this is just the beginning...so wish me luck in the next school year...

episode 12

2007-03-10T10:52:00.000+08:00

episode 12
final episode
part 1

So yeah!!! The real battle has come.

This time, I'm no longer battling with my classmates in Elizabeth who are almost not human beings. I'm no longer battling with those peepz there who keeps on treating me like I should not be respected. I'm no longer battling with Nazario who keeps on bugging my mind though we're apart and we treat each other like we're stangers to each other.

This is the real battle because I'm battling now with the Candidates for Honors. Oh yah! Do you know who they are?! Here goes:

Josette
Ais
Mia
Jai
DJ
Thea
Grace
April
Ysobel

Gosh!!!! do you think I can win in this battle of very nerdy peepz?! Whenever I'm with them I feel like I'm a flunker...their grades are so high I can't reach it...I know we're only 10 but I don't know...the tension's still there...Ms. Rey [vice principal] told us that just because we're candidates doesn't mean that we're honor students automatically and I got scared because of that...Dammit!!!!!!!! Can I still make it to the honor with those peepz?!?!?!

Okay stop the drama!!! We had our written and oral interview in English and Filipino as usual...and I hate it..I was told that my thoughts weren't organized...of course my co-candidates answered it just right...

Then of course...we had our early periodical tests...T_T...CAF & Chem's not that good...thank God I got perfect in Trigo...

I don't know...I'm just scared and afraid and everything now...what if I'm not included in the honor?!...what if I can't have a scholarship in college?!...it's my future we're talking about here...I wanna cry but I can't show everyone that I'm weak...I have to be strong...I can't do anything now but to wait for the announcement of the honor students...Lord please!!! I know you'll help me make it if it's Your will...may Your will be done...

episode 11

2007-02-24T11:09:00.000+08:00

episode 11
2nd to the last episode

Time runs so fast. This is the 2nd to the last episode of Junior.

Report cards are given. I'm now only the Top 2 of the class. Well, it's because I've been absent for two weeks during the 3rd quarter due to German measles. So there. My grades went down a lot. Good thing my PE's 87. WHOO! I thought I couldn't make it to the honor anymore. Whew! I'll really do my best this time. But whoa! For the first time I'm flunking Chem...owwww!!! No!!! I can make it. I know I can make it. I'll just do my best. Ms. Jojo warned me in my quizzes because it's kinda low. I'll study more on Noli. Gawsh! I have to be serious now with my studies. Just 2 weeks to go and my suffering is over. For now, I'll do my best in my studies.

My relationship with my friends are going steady...nothing to worry...

A miracle just happened. Nazario apologized to me. Would you believe that?! I received a message from him in Friendster. Here's what he said:

"Alam ko na may nagawa kong mali sayo sana matapatad [sic] mo ko at sana friends ulit tyo again sorry tlaga hope well be friends eh! PEACE NA PU! (^_^) kaw bahala kung ayaw mo ko patawarin..."

The following day, he was planning to talk to me. [skip]...I did forgive him already...Like I said in the previous episode, I've finally moved on. I don't really care about him anymore...and past is past. Forgive and forget right?! But if you're wondering why we still don't talk, it's because of study matters. I won't explain further because it's violating my 2 important resolutions [no boys allowed & concentrate only with yourself]...so there. One thing's for sure. He's one of the peepz whom I'm gonna help with the periodical tests...

By the way, in the middle of the episode I met a cute guy in the youth talk in Mary Help [considered as GK so I attended]. Here's what happened. I'm with Ate Ai, Abbie, Jayne, Alexis & Jean. Here's our sitting arrangement from left to right: Jean-Alexis-Ate Ai-Abbie-Jayne-me. But there's still a vacant seat beside me. Not so long, there's this certain guy who sat beside me. He was kinda cute so they [Jean, Alexis, Ate Ai, Abbie & Jayne] teased me. He resembles Kuya Paco so I'm kinda interested to meet him. Unfortunately, he doesn't even know my name. But I hope I can meet him again. I'm kinda interested and I don't know why. But this is not yet the right time. No boys allowed right?!

We're only 10 candidates for honors. So I hope I can make it. Our periodical test is a week from now. Hope I can make it. Go Joanne!!!!!

Witness the final episode of Junior okay?!

episode 10

2007-02-03T07:37:00.000+08:00

episode 10
3rd to the last episode

Grades are kinda fine. Actually it's almost not fine. We had our periodical tests last Jan 15-19. Ms. Mhyn's so good she still gave Ate Ai and I a special quiz even peroidical tests are over. My special quiz in Health was fine but when it comes to the total quizzes...GOSH!! The equivalent's only a line of 8. Good thing my periodical test there is high. In Health, the percentage of periodical test is higher than the percentage of quizzes. My periodical test in CAF is fine too. Music...SH*T!! Why does Ms. D have to force us to watch it...you know...the MMG play?! DA HELL!!! I don't wanna watch it because it brought so many misfortunes in my life already. My Chem grade is fine I think. Awww!! But I'm starting to hate Ms. Annie. Just because I wasn't able to put the Chemical Equation in the quiz, she gave me a 0/20 already. But my answers are correct. GRRRRRRRR!!!! But okay!!! I'll just make the remaining quizzes perfect. ARGh!!! But good thing I got a +5 in periodical test this quarter for winning third place in power of the minds, together with a Freshman, Sophomore and Eloisa...the smartest person among the seniors I think. [My mom doesn't know it yet.Haha!] WHOA!!! Trigo!!! I got perfect in the periodical test again!!! YAAAAY!!!!! At least nakabawi ako sa recitation q..haha!!! But Trigo lessons today are kinda hard because problem solving is involved already which is my weakness in Math. GAH!!! It's okay!!! I can do this. CL/V's fine too, going steady...Parish involvement is fun!!!hehe! Grammar...GOsH!!! my grade here went down a lot..now I'm only a Top 4 there...=(...Computer's going steady I think..I wish my Arts would be fine!!!...but this quarter is a blast!!!...We have a group work to perform the 80's. TLE's going steady...AP I hope is steady but I know it will be a lower grade...Speech I hope is still fine...to my groupmates in Speech, let's do it!!! Haha!! But my Lit...I'm grateful for Ms. Francis...my grade should be just 84 really but she gave me another chance and gave me an extra work instead...But my PE...all failed...PLEASE!!!!!!!! I want to continue my being candidate for honor...

I'm invited to run for the SAGe...Phillip's party is still incomplete...I'm gonna take chances...I'll run...hope I can see Phillip soon...

My friends...Ate Ai came back already!!! YEY!!!! but her grades kinda delicate...but I'm gonna help her...She won't be a repeater 'coz we'll be future classmates again in college..Jayne is officially not my friend...yup!! you read it right..who would want a friend who keeps on betraying you all over again?! No one right?! My relationship with Alexis is fine..kinda wacky but fine..I had to help Kimmie with her relationship with Francis since it kinda resembles with my relationship with Nazario...you know...when spark was still between the two of us...What the hell is Francis doing to Kimmie?!...maybe he forgets that he still has a girlfriend!!...Boys sucks really eh!!! Good thing I was able to help Kimmie...if not, she'll be just like me after Nazario ignored me...

Oh yah!!! I almost forgot to post here about my relationship with Nazario...I've finally moved on really!...here's what happened...[from January 19 post in my xanga]

"i'm hating Nazario more and more each day unlike the ones last year 'coz I know now how he hates me very much...so much that I wanna slap him on his face, literally...but this morning...an extraordinary thing happened...well...today's teacher's day and final exam on trigo...we had this little program for ms. mhyn since it's teacher's day...while the program's going on, ms. mhyn told us her wish...she wished that no one in Elizabeth hate each other...in tagalog, sana daw walang magkagalit sa elizabeth...ouch! tinamaan ako dun...actually, nagtitimpi lang ako nun...does nazario feel it too?...maybe not...gah!!! yun pa manheeeed!!!...one of us said silven and gelo which is true...medyo magkagalit sila...then PK suddenly talked to ms mhyn...he said "serious merong magkagalit dito"...then ms mhyn asked who...then PK said "si gumba [nazario] at si joanne"...then I was shocked...i thought he was pointing at silven and gelo...i remained silent...then ms mhyn was like talking to nazario why we hate each other...then nazario was just like saying "wala yun! wala yun!"...then the whole elizabeth was like forcing us na magkabati na kami...then nazario stood up...went to me and offered a handshake...what can i do? edi nakipag-handshake na rin ako sa kanya...pero that doesn't mean that i don't hate him anymore..."

that's what happened...but we still don't talk until now...oh yah!!! Kailangan bang magpansinan?! Like I said, I've moved on...I don't care about Nazario anymore...I just don't mind him...that's it...but I admit it...* **** **** ***...guess the word!!! HAHA!!! Alvin told me he's not mad at me...he's just otistic daw...He also told me that he still cares a little for me...I don't mind anymore...that's the reason why I fell for him so I won't listen to Alvin's lies anymore...GAH!! sorry Alvin!!! But I learned my lesson...I'm sorry also to Ate Ai...she wants Nazario and I to go back to our sparkling relationship...actually, a part of me wants Nazario to be my friend again...just a friend...but Nazario's the one who don't wanna be my friend again...Wish I can read his mind...but I can't...I'll just concentrate on my friends and career without him...

Oh well!!! 56 days to go before summer!!!! YAHOOOO!!!! Junior's about to end!!!! What would be the ending?!....hmmmm?!

episode 9

2006-12-26T07:13:00.000+08:00

episode 9

I had this crazy idea of sending a little message to Nazario on friendster..as in so super crazy. You know what happened in the previous episode right? He's one of the peepz who texted me during the debut of Ate Ai. So there, my message is very long really but overall, I just told him to fix his attitude. He wants to be a priest but his attitude is worse than a devil [yup you read it right]. Well, I didn't regret sending him that kind of message because it was my way of snapping him off his @#!$%^&(*) ways..even if I told him the 'f' word I still didn't regret it..if I know that it's for his own good then I won't regret anything.

Nov. 27...happy birthday Daqui!!!...
I feel sick since reddish spots spread all over my skin but I still managed to go to school. Only Ms. Jojo caught me super reddish already so she sent me to the clinic and obviously, I was sent home and had a check-up..I had German measles [gosh!]..I just need to rest and drink lots [as in lots] of water..oh yah!!! I had to rest for 10 days which means I have to be absent for two weeks

when we went home, I found out that Nazario replied to my message and he said he was shocked at what I said because I wasn't like that before. He also said that I don't have the right to judge him...ok fine!!!...I replied sorry...but deep inside I didn't regret anything except for the f word...

Nov. 28...get well soon to me...
I replied to his message and I said sorry...

Dec 7-8...i'm back to school...
gosh!!!! so many quizzes that I missed...sure do hope I can still catch up with the lessons...the whole high school peepz are very busy practicing for the musicfest...GOSH!!! section Jerome wants to ruin our section?!...GAH!! honestly, I don't care...all of you know that I hate my section so why should I care?!...Ms. D has favoritism anyway so it doesn't matter if Jerome peepz gonna bust us and everything...

Dec 9-10...another mystery revealed [O.o]
Oh yah!!! today's the musicfest...I wasn't able to come because I just don't feel like coming...I don't like to support our section honestly...so anyway...when I logged in to Friendster [in Fab 5's account], I saw Nazario's blog...he has a new post...he was like desperate coz the one he loves in Caloocan now has a boyfriend...I don't know why I felt like crying that time...at first, I didn't believe...but the following day, I saw his previous posts in his blog...one post was at June 8 i think...before the first day of school [note: Nazario and I were not yet close before we became classmates this school year]...I read there his memories of Caloocan...and yes it is officially proven that he loves somebody else in Caloocan...

Alvin even told me the girl's name and I didn't even asked him...her name was Kristel...so that's the girl that Nazario was referring to when we had the retreat...so anyway, what is done is done...no boys allowed and concentrate only with yourself...one time I saw Kristel's profile and WHOA! i'm so shocked when I saw that her testimonials was flooded by Nazario...I also saw her pic...HAH!!!! she may be prettier but I'm SEXIER!!!! hahahahahahahaha!!!! just kiddin'...

There are more things that I would like to share about my relationship to Nazario but I'm just too lazy to post it...

More events...we just had our part 1 peroidical test in Chemistry under Ms. Annie's lessons...well, not that bad...I got perfect...yaaaay!!!!...Christmas party in school was a waste of time for me...I was craving for the Christmas vacation...

Merry Christmas and a Happy New year to all!!!!!!!

episode 8

2006-11-25T10:22:00.000+08:00

episode 8

Nov. 1-5...life without school is much better...just like summer...no study pressure, no peer pressure, no Felipe, Monique, DJ and Nazario to ruin my day and definitely problem free...In fact, I almost forgot Nazario and moments with him...I get to communicate with Fab 5 again...But it's just a sembreak...it's not yet summer...

Nov. 6...back to school...welcome back study pressure, peer pressure, Felipe, Monique, DJ, Nazario...*sigh*...start of 3rd quarter...new seat plan...goodbye Daqui!...hello Kimmie and Alexis!!!...Kimmie sits in front of me...Ate Ai sits at my back...nothing really...Jayne still seats far away from me...Some of us (including me) received already an invitation for Ate Ai's debut...I'm one of the 18 wishes...*gawd*...suddenly I don't feel like going to her debut anymore...Is Nazario gonna come? Hope not!...

Nov. 9...ARGH!!!! I hate TLE class this quarter...our new teacher is Ms. Wendy...but I never thought that she's gonna teach lessons like Love & Dating?!?! WTH!!!!!!

Nov. 10...Hmph! Nazario's going to Ate Ai's debut too...Alvin told me he's going to come...so I said that I may not come anymore...would you imagine what Nazario even said...

Alvin: oi!! Pupunta daw si Joanne kung hindi ka pupunta
Nazario: PUPUNTA AKO B*TCH!!!

Is he gonna kill me or what?! I had second thoughts of not going anymore...But okay I'm gonna come!...it's for Ate Ai anyway...not for Nazario nor for me...

Nov. 11...Ate Ai's debut...A VERY BAD DAY FOR ME...it started when Alvin started to text me during the debut...until he started to text me something like these (i doubted if Alvin is still the one whe texted me like these):

"Gumba, Gumba!!!!" (I replied...'grrrrrrrrr!!!!')
"WAAA! Joanne panget!!!!" (I replied...'LOOK ON THE MIRROR FIRST!!!!')
"Ah kaya pala ang panget ng nkkta ko sa salamin kasi ikaw yung nkkta ko!!!" (I got mad already at this and I wanted to go home already)
"Sorry! I was just telling the truth!" (ARGH!!!! WHAT THE F***!!!!)

Before I went home, I saw Alvin and Nazario...I should have slapped them on the face...But I don't have time for that...Besides, it's against my resolution concentrate only with myself and somewhat connected to 'no boys allowed'...And besides, there's no such thing as an ugly person...if there is, maybe that person's just messed up...

Nov 13...HAPPY BIRTHDAY ATE AI!!!!...I told my friends what those guys have done to me...Daqui wanted to help me by texting them with so vulgar words...well, I kinda agree anyway because they deserve it...Alvin told me already who texted those things to me...I knew it's not him...here's the people who texted me such things...

Miguel: "Gumba, Gumba!!!!"
Akeem: "WAAA! Joanne panget!!!!"
Akeem: "Ah kaya pala ang panget ng nkkta ko sa salamin kasi ikaw yung nkkta ko!!!"
Francis/Nazario: "Sorry! I was just telling the truth!"

I really want to agree with Daqui...

Bwict kayong mga lalake kayo!!!!!! Ano bang ginawa ko?!...Wala naman diba?! Kung meron man, matagal ko nang tinigil yun...Pero di bale...hahayaan ko na lang ang karma ang magparusa sa inyo...goodluck na lang!

Alvin even told me that Nazario want me to cry...well sorry Nazario! I can't do that...I obey the resolution 'no crying in public'...I'll make you cry first before me...

UHHHH!!!!! Okay!!! Enough! Concentrate only with yourself...

Nov. 16...Ate Ai left for Japan...oh well! She'll be back soon...Ms. Mhyn chose me to represent Elizabeth for Battle of the Brains...well, I just won 3rd place 'coz I didn't study...oh well! Congratz to Grace (Jerome) for winning!...Gela represented Thomas...nothing really!

Nov. 18...Argh! My hand got hit by a boiling water!

Nov. 20-23...WAAAH!!!!!! I tend to sleep even though I haven't done with any assignment yet....ARGH!!!! What's happening to me?!?!?!?...I hate myself for being too lazy!!!!!!!WAH!!!! Please God change this attitude of mine!!!!!!! Happy Birthday Me-an!

Argh!! PE class sucks!!!!!! I failed in 2 practical tests already!!!! No!!! Don't give up!!! Practice more and you'll succeed!!!

Nov. 24...I'm so happy!!!!! Monique and Nazario's absent...Alvin told me that Nazario's in San Carlos Seminary...But am I really happy?!...I admit it...It's a mixed emotion...Happy because somehow he doesn't ruin my day...Sad because he's really going to be a priest (WTH!)...It's my heart that's speaking right now...In spite of the bad things that he has done to me?! Why do I still feel sad?!...I should be happy right?! Now that he's going to be a priest someday...he's finally out of my life...Somehow I'm disappointed at him...don't he feel embarassed?! He wants to be a priest but what he's doing to me is worse than a devil would do...he sucks!...I'm hating myself for falling in-love with him...I just want him out of my life...........

Now I'm here...left with worries and anxiety...I'm facing very terrible trials right now...I just want it out...I want summer back again!!!!! =(

episode 7

2006-10-30T14:16:00.000+08:00

episode 7

I was afraid this time would come...facing my consequences for violating two resolutions...no boys allowed & no singing in public...

one of my resolutions is no boys allowed...the most important resolution...and i violated it...why did I have to let Nazario enter my life?!...I admit it...I regret it...I knew what I did was right when I snobbed him during CL/V class[see episode 4]...we were taking notes that time...I went near him 'coz I couldn't see the acetate from my seat...and suddenly he gave me compliments...remember? Freshman Idol?...ang ganda daw ng suot ko nun...ang galing ko daw kasi magaling na akong kumanta, matalino pa...tapos idol na daw nya ako...something like that...I want to entertain him but i remembered my resolution so instead I snobbed him...then he said sorry 'coz he was wacky...and I told him to just keep quiet 'coz we should be copying...but then I was killed by my conscience for snobbing him...so I promised not to snob him again...but then I remembered his compliments...I was flattered but I shouldn't be...only to find out that I'm falling for him and let him enter my life...we became so close to each other...then suddenly he started ignoring me...I hated myself for letting things happen...now I'm longing for him...only to receive a dreadful message from him...he told me that he loves somebody else...and my grades went down a lot because I keep on thinking about him...now this is the consequence that I'm facing...Nazario, just in case you're reading this...there's just one thing that you should know...know your real vocation...if you don't like a girl then don't let her like you...or if you want to be a priest then don't look at girls okay?!...i know you have a very high pride but you should know that...

another resolution that I violated...no singing in public...I accidentally joined the singing contest...now the consequence is...I lost the contest...I didn't even reached 3rd place...no regrets really but it hurts you know...

Elizabeth peepz got better compared to the previous episode...Felipe no longer bugs me that much...he still do but not that offending...Monique also...well...I don't really care if she backfights me or what...I'll just get even if she gets worse again...DJ...be a gentleman more...hm...even Daqui's irritated at him...Jayne...I admit it...She's starting to get to my nerves...she just don't know how I feel because she has never been in love...can't believe my own friend could do this to me...basta...kontrabida xa sa lovelife ko...lalo na kay Puppyluv...i hated it when she stopped me for looking for Puppyluv again when he came back [look below]

I just got close to Ate Ai these days...It's her debut already on Nov. 11...of course I'm invited...all I can say is she's nice to be with...same with Daqui...though she likes a belt for her birthday...hm...I'll just make a bracelet for her...it looks like a belt anyway...hehe...same also with Alexis and Kimmie...

Bout my studies...well...it's not that good I admit it...i flunked 2 quizzes in Chem...1 quiz in CAF and 1 quiz in Geom...AP's fine since I'm usually the highest in the class...like I said I'm facing the most terrible consequence right now that's affecting my grades...good thing the candle I made was just in time for checking...so sad...I might be dropped from the Candidates for honors...NO!!! keep believing!!!! I know I can still make it...I promise I won't let any boy come into my life again...

ooh!!!! someone came back...someone very special in my life...hmm...no one can really take his place...sorry Nazario!!!!...I'm totally over you...and I can't wait for summer to forget you completely...I admit it...I thought you were the one who can take his place because I thought you're just like him...but I'm completely wrong...in fact, you're the weirdest person that I ever met in my entire life...i don't bother bothering you anymore...and don't even think that I like you that much...don't talk to me and don't come back into my life again!!!!!!...who's that person?!?!?...DUH!!! It's Puppyluv...when I saw him, he knocked me off my feet...that's last Friday...the last day of exams...I went down from second floor for assembly then suddenly while I was walking [the middle part]...the Agatha peepz was like saying "Hi Sir!!!"...I was wondering...Sir who?...then I saw him...and said 'hi!' he came back!!!!...I don't care what people were saying about me...I just liked that moment even if he didn't talk to me that much...we were taking the exams already...the he passed by our classroom...good thing I'm near the window...he went near the window next to me...then said 'hi' again...thanks Puppyluv...even if I can't have you anymore...you mend my broken heart...now I can face the world again...no more the consequences...I'm totally me again...thank you Puppyluv!!!!!

episode 6 part 2

2006-10-02T13:46:00.000+08:00

episode 6
part 2

Happy mode:
While I'm having trouble with Nazario, Ivan's with me these days. He's also included in the variety show. In the AVR, we, singing contestants practiced. Then suddenly the 3rd yr. dancers came. And I was so surprised to see Ivan again and I don't know why I felt so happy to see him again.

I had trouble with singing 'Say that you love me' since the minus one that mom and I bought was the version of Regine Velasquez. GOSH! Anyway, Sir. Danny suggested that I should change my song since the song don't really fit me and he already considered a VCD Karaoke..Yaaaaay!!!! So I changed my song. I'll sing now 'How am I supposed to live without you'..the female version [the male version was sang by Michael Bolton]..I forgot the singer of the female version [SOWEE!!!]..the song's kinda old already that's why...and I dedicate that song to Nazario..just don't ask anymore okay?!..

Sad mode:
Argh!!! Grades are slipping up!!!!! I flunked the 3rd quiz in Chem...again!!!...and CAF also...I only got a 14/20...but thank God I'm kinda improving in CAF...that's my lowest score so far...

Frustrated mode:
ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! What the heck is wrong with my Elizabeth family?!?!??!?!?! Do I even belong to this section?!?!? Tell me!!!!!!! What's wrong with you!!!!!! Why are you doing this to me?!?!?!? Wala naman akong ginagawang masama sa inyo ah!!!!! I really had enough with you guys!!!!!!

Oh yah!!!! Before I continue, unlike other people who don't mention names in the internet because they still respect the person...well, I'm sorry!!!! I'm not like that!!!!! This is my blog so I MENTION NAMES!!!!!!....

should I continue?!??!....well, I admit it...I'm only a human who makes mistakes...sometimes I'm not that innocent in the classroom...yes I know....I usually tell the boys that they just wanna flirt with me whenever they're around me [it's just a joke]...And I can still remember those boys whom I told that to...Jerome, Jomar, Miggy, Daniel, Francis...I understand why Jerome, Miggy and Francis is already discriminating me...FINE!!!!!....

But Felipe?!?!?!?!....Oh please!!!!! Just stop doing this to me!!!!!! [to Felipe...just in case you're reading this right now...]...I understand that you're such a jerk to do such things to me but it's already abusing you know...I know I accidentally touched your *****...and I'm sorry I didn't mean it...If you're just trying to revenge for what I did then I think that's so enough...ENOUGH IS ENOUGH ALL RIGHT?!?!...I just did that to you once and it's not even intentionally...but what you're doing to me is more than once...Please!!!! What you're doing to me is not nice anymore!!!! SO STOP IT!!!!! STOP DISCRIMINATING ME!!!!! STOP DESTROYING MY LIFE!!!!!....

Oh yah!!! 2 more persons...Monique and DJ...

[to Monique first]...What the heck is wrong with you?!?!...Maybe you're forgetting that talking during quizzes is considered cheating...and you should know the lessons that we're taking up right?! Then why are you asking me what is perpektibo [aspekto ng pandiwa] with Felipe while we're taking the quiz?! And why do you even have the nerve to say na madamot ako when I didn't answer your question?! Then just because I just got a 14/20 doesn't mean that you have the right to say yuck! to my score...and don't even say that makapal ang mukha ko....for your info....mas makapal po ang mukha mo!!!...at least ako kahit ganun ung score ko, hindi aq cheater!!!! hindi ako katulad mo!!!!!

[to DJ]...I had enough with you!!!!!! LAGI MO NA LANG AKONG BINABARA!!!! NAKAKA-IRITA NA KASI EH!!!!!!! ANO BANG GINAWA KO SA'YO?!?! WALA NAMAN DIBA?!?!?!? HINDI KO NAAALALA NA KASAMA KA SA MGA SINABIHAN KO NA NAGPAPAPANSIN SA AKIN!!!!!!! SA DINAMI-DAMI NG PAMBABARA MO SA AKIN, TINAMAD NA AKONG I-TYPE KUNG ANONG KLASENG PAMBABARA YUNG MGA YUN!!!!!...YOU'RE SO BIASED!!!!!!....Treat me fairly naman like your other friends because I'm not doing anything to you...In fact, I even help you when you need help eh!........

oh yah!!! with regards to Akeem.......you're kinda irritating me already...what you're doing to me is still not that bad but please stop it....it's irritating you know...

oh yah!!! I almost forgot my resolution concentrate only with myself.. i'm not gonna entertain peepz who keep on discriminating and biasing me...i don't care what you say about me anymore...and who are you to judge me like that?!...as if you know me very well...but okay!!...i don't really care about you peepz...anyone who tries to destroy my Junior life...especially those peepz whom I mentioned here...verbally or non-verbally...i don't really care...i'll just get even if it's really needed

Normal mode:
I don't know...I just hate this lonely life...If only I can control time then I'll fast it forward to summer...I'm still thankful to God...In spite of all the trials that I meet everyday...at least I still have friends to be with...Jayne, Cza, Nina, Chynna, Danielle, Danix and Joshua...thank you very much...I mean it...Thanks to typhoon Milenyo...I had a 5-day vacation without school...only it's a great disadvantage[no electricity, water, phone and cable...but it's okay]...Maybe God knew I needed a break...Thank you Lord...and thank You for reminding me that Mama Mary and my guardian angel is always with me...and also one more thing...I miss Fab 5...

Wish me luck in the singing contest....

I'm so surprised...I will also sing a number in the variety show...[triplet with Ivan and PK]...wow!! I'm excited!!!....guess what we're gonna sing...it's Breaking Free...from High School Musical...wow!!! love that!!!

Well...wish me luck in my life...I hope the next episode's a much lighter burden to carry...

episode 6 part 1

2006-09-22T18:12:00.000+08:00

episode 6
part 1

Honestly, I don't know what to post now. My life is like so ruined.

I got my card. Can't believe I'm Top 1 of Elizabeth. I thought I can't be a candidate anymore because of that CAF [=p]...First friday mass...I'm one of the song leaders since the peepz who are included in the singing contest should be the song leaders...before the mass, I met Freshman friends...Katy, Germay*spell* & Kim...also my co-competitors in the singing contest...Katy sang solo in The Power of Love...I was like getting scared to compete with her...Almost everybody says that she's maarte.. for me, I don't think so...mabait nga xa eh!!!...but if ever that's true, well, i can't judge a person you know...Also this day, I didn't know that there's an elimination in the contest...From 21 down to 8 contestants...I wasn't able to prepare really...I just borrowed Klang's CD...and sang 'Reflection'...for me, that was my worst performance ever...much to my surprise, I still got in the final 8 contestants...only ranked 7[wait a sec, that's Nazario's favorite number...grrrr...that number sucks!!!]...Vina & I got in for the Juniors...[Freshman Idol and the runner-up huh?!]...Unfortunately, Klang and PK wasn't able to got in the 8...Most of us who got in are the seniors...

On the other side of the story, I'm facing also with very terrible trials and difficulties right now. My grades are slipping up seriously...Especially AP and Chem...I don't wanna talk about why...this is so related to Nazario...until now, he still don't want to talk to me...and I admit it...I'm so affected by the way he acts...I wonder what went wrong...he wasn't like that before...It's okay if he doesn't like me back but deadma is the greatest rejection for me...Wanna know what happened? Well, I had this crazy idea of snapping him off at my testimonial to his best friend[Friendster] for deleting his testimonials to me...then suddenly he revenged me...2 times...first....he made a testi to his best friend...then at his blog...as if he's saying that I'm the worst person he ever met...I wonder...except for that incident, what did I do to him that made him turn into a 'devil'?! He even calls me a b*t*h...I wish I followed my resolution strictly...I wish I ignored his first compliment to me...I wish I wasn't killed by my conscience when I ignored his compliments...And I wish I didn't let him come into my life...

But while I'm having trouble with Nazario, Ivan's with me these days...he's also included in the variety show...2 b continued on part 2...

episode 5

2006-08-26T08:46:00.000+08:00

episode 5

argh!!!!! Junior life is going from bad to worse...

grades are slipping up...especially in Music & CAF...there was this surprise quiz in Music and I don't even have complete notes to study...and Ms. D even included the life of Ryan Cayabyab which she gave only the day we're going to have the quiz...i failed and got a 14/30.....GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

Aug.2...Literature class...Ms. Francis let us hear a song of the last leaf...then she let us draw something that symbolizes the song...I didn't know the song was about love...Nazario was seated beside me then he explained the song to me...he said that before the last leaf falls...your love will come to you...wow!!!! maybe i'm no longer prone to falling in-love that's why i didn't listen to the song at all...then Ms. Francis read some of the work of others...i don't know why...but i feel like there was 'spark' especially Nazario's beside me...then he said something like "it's time for me to tell you"...then Me-ann said "sagutin mo na kasi!!!!!" and Daqui asked "kayo na ba?"...i really felt something sparkling between us...

Aug.4...first friday mass....waaaaaaaah!!!!!!!! I joined the singing contest by accident!!!!!!!! this is what happened...I volunteered to read the Prayers of the Faithful of the mass so I was seated at the reader's seats...then Sir. Danny[the one responsible for the singing contest] approached me...I wasn't able to hear him well...I thought I still have to audition so I registered for the singing contest...then he suddenly said na wag na daw akong mag-audition....WAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! oh no!!!!!!!!...that's against my resolution no singing in public....silly me!!!!! GRRRRR!!!!!...my conscience is killing me...my competitors did their best in the audition while me...i joined the contest without effort...=(...Nazario gave me another testi...he said there that he wants to tell me something important but it's not yet the time...i'm getting curious about it & i don't know why...

Aug.11...oh no!!!! exams next week!!!! gotta study now...Nazario told me something...he told me that he's feeling weird...=...i'm feeling that too...if only you know...

Aug.15-18...periodical exams!!!!....gosh!!! everything's difficult especially trigo & CAF....CAF!!!! GRRRRRRR!!!!!! I hate Ms. Jojo!!!!!!!! She gave us an exam with a right minus wrong!!!!!!!!!

then now...it's been 2 weeks since Nazario started ignoring me...i don't know why...jayne,alvin & daqui told me that he hates me...as if everything sparkling was just a dream...i guess this is my consequence for violating the resolution no boys allowed...daqui & ate ai told me to make the first move...jayne, nina & nica told me to let him do the first move because if i make the first move, he might think na hinahabol ko sya...while ivan & micah told me that it's better not to make the first move but if I can't resist him...making the first move is a good option too...nothing's wrong there...so I called him on the phone last night...this is a foolish decision but I'll give this foolish heart of mine a chance...so there...I told him everything...then he said that he's just concentrating on his studies that's why he no longer talks to me...that's officially weird!!!!!!!...alright!!!....I'll continue my life without him...

oh yah!!! it's ivan's birthday today!!!! oh well...I'll make him a testi...bye!!!!!

episode 4

2006-07-29T08:00:00.000+08:00

episode 4

July 2. My Archcon family had our visitation at our house...Well, they're really so nice 2 b with...The statue of Mama Mary's with us now...But it will be tranferred next month...

July 10-12. We had our retreat at La Verna retreat house at Tagaytay. Well, I had a lot of fun there. And I didn't even feel homesick. I miss my tablemates na nga eh! Jayne, Ate Ai, Ken, Miguel & Dan. I also miss my dormmates. Jayne, Ate Ai, Me-an, Daqui, Milli, Yla, Ces, Alexis, Kimmie & Chelzee. I miss our retreat master Kuya Pau. [don't even think about it! I don't like Kuya Pau. It's just that minsan ka lang nakakakilala ng taong ganun katulad ni Kuya Paco sa CCP...]

July 21. First club meeting. I had no choice but to join Youfra again. Since Jayne's absent & I'm all alone this day. =(

Argh!!!! My grades are slipping up!!!!! Gotta work harder!!!!!!!

"I think I like him but I know I can't"

Gosh! I'm a slave of my own school year resolutions. Fulfilling it is harder than I thought. Especially the rule no boys allowed. I met this guy. And I can't resist him because he needs my help when it comes to studies. He reminds me of 2 persons,Puppyluv & Ivan. He reminds me of Puppyluv because he's almost like Puppyluv. He reminds me of Ivan because I was with him this time last year. It's happening all over again. It's like Moments of Love you know [if you know the story]. Well, if you wanna know who he is, I already mentioned him in the previous episode. And he already appeared as an ensemble at Season 2 [Romantic School 2] who played as my co-competitor at Freshman Idol. I know I can't like him because of my resolution no boys allowed. I don't even know if he likes me back 'coz I know he wants to be a priest, just like Puppyluv. Even if his friends tease us, I know I can't like him.Kailangang pigilan ang nararamdaman. My grades are slipping up because of that. Gosh!!! I'm tested by my resolutions. Life in Elizabeth is going from bad to worse every other day. I wasn't even able to attend the reunion of my Margaret family. I MISS YOU MY MARGARET FAMILY!!!!!! It's much harder than I expected. Well, I hope I can still fulfill my dream. I hope I can survive this school year.

episode 3

2006-06-30T17:53:00.000+08:00

episode 3

well...i can say that school life's kinda looking up...i met a new certified friend...her name's Jayne...I already talked about her a little in the last episode...anyway, she has a twin sister, Joyce...well, nothing really...hehe...

well, let's start the line-up of happenings in 'Junior'...I was dreaming about Ivan before the day started...we we're talking through the phone then suddenly, we were disconnected and I woke up....what does that mean anyway?!...argh! it's monday again!(June 19)...I just don't wanna wake up and start the day in school...I'd rather demand a home class for myself than to go to school with strange new people around me...then there...I'm already at school...and, as usual, sad 'coz I don't know which people should I hang out with...peer pressure's in the air as usual...then Sir. Cris whisled which means it's time to go to the gym for the assembly...then I saw Chelzee so I went to the gym with her...then Encee also went along with us...Encee already put his things along the front in our line...so Chelzee and I just stayed along the front line...then we talked stuff...then Ivan came (of course, along the line of Thomas)...he was just a seat away from me...so he asked me to lend my CAF notebook to him to copy my assignment...since I am good to him even though he cannot be good to me (Sir. Vincent's quote),I lend him...then there...everything was going just ok...then discussions were okay...until Chemistry terror teacher Ms. Annie came...would you believe she still wants us to have fillers for our notes, seatworks and quizzes?!...argh! kaya nga may notebook eh!!!!!.... then I also had problem of buying an outline map since mine is incorrect and it's out of stock in the school supplies...dismissal time...Jayne and I went to the second floor...then I fetched Gela...and oh yah! Cza, Danielle & Chynna were already outside...and I asked them if they have extra fillers...but they weren't able to help....then I saw Ivan went outside their classroom...and of course, asked for fillers...he wasn't able to help either and he borrowed my CAF notebook again?!?!?!...like what I said a while ago...hai nako!!!...I have no choice...then let's call it a Monday...

I have many classroom rivals...you know...Josette and Silven...and so many boys bugged me during the two weeks...like Felipe who borrowed my saint bracelet overnight...Nazario [Gumba] who was kinda irritating and blackmailing me during the CL/V class...Silven who made fun of me after he scored one point higher than me in the Grammar diagnostic test...well, should I consider Ivan who I think I like him already?!...now I know the meaning of my dream...he's with me for a while now but he'll be gone slowly but surely...you know what?!...I tried to call him last Friday...then he told me that he's talking with someone else (I can't prove but I think he's referring to Janine)...I was so sad...I'm only a friend to him and nothing more...oh yah! I remember what happened a while ago...when the MMG peepz we're performing...Janine was there...then I heard Dana teasing Ivan "uyyyy!!!! c Janine o!!!!!"...ugh! why do I like him anyway if there's more reason not to like him?!...argh!! I currently have a problem right now...I don't know which club should I join since YRC no longer exist?!...wah!! please help!!!!!!!!!!

good thing I met new friends...currently close one is Jayne...next are Daqui, Me-an, Ate Ai and Milli...well, Elizabeth peepz are kind people naman eh for now...

2006-06-17T11:38:00.000+08:00

episode 2

second and third day of school is never looking up...

Thursday:

well, we met our subject teachers already...and a new seat plan...and what a shame!!!! that Chavez guy's my seatmate!!!! argh!! I hate it!!! I already know him...he's worse than Ivan when it comes to attitude...well...I also talked with Melissa[Mel for short]...and with Jayne...uhmm...well, not much about them...CAF class...gosh!! Ms. Jojo...she looked like a terror teacher...and would you believe she just gave us our first long assignment...grrrrrrrr...but here's a good moment...when she grouped us...I met 3 girls who are my groupmates...well, I think they're kind and friendly...and they also asked me that "diba ikaw yung magaling kumanta at matalino pa?!"...gosh!!! they know me pala...and I found out something...they're from the same section when we're in first year...Perugia...which means they're close to Puppyluv...gosh!!! is this a blessing or what?!...a memory from Puppyluv?!...well, nothing really about them...i didn't even think that we're gonna be friends..anyway...they're Mel, Ate Ai & Abbie...I was so sad during lunch time because NJACADA's incomplete...Dana, Aika & Gem didn't join us...seems like they have new friends already...and Chynna has Cza & Danielle to hang out with...

Friday

well..as usual...not looking up....still a loner...during the assembly a while ago...when we're about to go back to our classroom...I caught up with Ivan & Kim [since Elizabeth's beside Thomas]...I admit it...they're sweet...I miss Ivan's attitude already...get it?! his friendly attitude...and when I bid 'hi' to him...he showed his serious look again [tapos parang ang sama pa ng tingin ni Kim]...pati ba naman si Ivan mawawala na rin sa akin?!...oh how I wish Margaret's back...good thing there's still NJACADA with me...oh yah!!! Ivan's seat is in front of Gela's pala...hai!!! good thing!!!...they're not loners anymore...by the way, Nina, Gela and I went to our good old classroom of ii-Margaret...well, still the same...but not the same people anymore...in the school bus...everything changed since Jamaix went away...Natalie tranferred na rin pala...we're few already...I'm already quiet there...the only people who bond there are Lorraine, Colleen & Sherwin...the rest of us are just quiet...

If I'm really meant to live my life alone...and if I'm meant to pursue my dreams alone...then I'll take it...I know it's hard but it's for my own good too...and this is not forever anyway right?!...I know I can make it without them for a while...

"grew up in a small town and when the rain would fall down...i just stared out my window...dreaming of what could be and if I'd end up happy I would pray...trying not to reach out but when I'd try to speak out...felt like no one could hear me...wanted to belong here but something felt so wrong here..so I pray I could breakaway...I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly...I'll do what it takes 'til I touch the sky...I'll make a wish...take a chance...make a change and breakaway...out of the darkness and into the sun but I won't forget all the ones that I loved...I'll take a risk...take a chance...make a change and breakaway...wanna feel the warm breeze...sleep under a palm tree...feel the rush of the ocean...get onboard a fast train...travel on a jetplane far away and breakaway...buildings with a hundred floors...swinging around revolving doors...maybe I don't know where they'll take me but gotta keep moving on, moving on...fly away, breakaway...I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly...though it's not easy to tell you goodbye...I gotta take a risk...take a chance...make a change and breakaway...out of the darkness and into the sun but I won't forget the place I come from...I gotta take a risk...take a chance...make a change...and breakaway...breakaway...breakaway"

2006-06-14T15:48:00.000+08:00

episode 1

well, first day of school didn't go out really well...okay...when I arrived at school...I really looked at my name in the list of sections if Ana was right that NJACADA's torn apart...I don't wanna believe Elizabeth's really my section and NJACADA's torn apart and even Gia & Ivan's not my classmates anymore...It's unbeleivable that non of your friends will be your classmates again...But what's done is done...nangyari na ang dapat mangyari...I saw the list of sections and Ana was right...Dana's at Agatha [poor her...her adviser is Ms. Jo]...I'm at Elizabeth...Chynna's at Hyacinth...Ana's at Jerome...Nina, Gem, Gia & Aika's at Salome...and Gela & Ivan's at Thomas...okay back to the story...after I saw the list of sections, I was wondering around the school and see of Ana's there already...she told me she's early so I was looking for her...then I saw Stella and the gang hanging there at the umbrella...then they pointed me to Ana...then I saw her with Gem!!!!...then Steph joined us and we sat at the swing...and we talked stuff...then we saw Nina...and she also joined us...then we went to see again the list at the gate 2...then I saw Gela & Ivan...Gela first approached us and then I saw Ivan, I approached him...and we did the same appear that we did during the last day last year...he was so serious and I didn't like that because it means he's sad...wah! Thank God!!! I saw Chelzee 'coz she's my classmate!!!!! and I don't wanna continue anymore 'coz there's nothing to say...only this...iii-Elizabeth's truly horrible this time...and oh yah!! My new adviser's Ms. Mhyn...argh!!! why does it have to be this way?!?!?!?...our classroom's at first floor and it's an out-of-place section since most of the third year classroom's at second floor...our co-out-of-place section is Agatha...and among the classrooms, it's the farthest from the Faculty room!!!!! But there's also good news!!! I met Ms. Celine during our dismissal time when Chynna, Gela, Nina & I were loitering around...gosh!! she really is a very good mommy!!! she even gave me an advice to be an honor student even though she's no longer my mommy...well, all I can say is this...

"Somebody lied to me,it just can't be,you can't be gone forever.Somebody got it wrong,you are gonna love me all my life.Where'd we good together,now I'm on my own,And I don't think I'll ever learn to live,one day alone.So I'm never gonna say goodbye,say goodbye, is something I can't bring my self to do.So I'll never gonna say goodbye,darling I know, part of me will always be with you.What am I gonna do?havin' you, is all I've ever wanted.Where am I gonna go,to feel the way I felt inside your arms?Still my life is better,lovin' you as I do,Thank's for being with me darling thank's,for being you. So I'm never gonna say goodbye, say goodbye, is something I can't bring myself to do. So I'll never gonna say goodbye, darling I know, part of me will always be with you..."

junior premieres tomorrow

2006-06-13T16:03:00.000+08:00

Pangarap na Bituin

Junior theme song by Sharon Cuneta

Saang sulok ng langit ko matatagpuan

Kapalarang 'di natitikman

Sa pangarap lang namasdan

Isang lingon sa langit at isang ngiting wagas

May talang kikislap, gabay patungo sa tamang landas

Unti-unting mararating kalangitan at bituin

Unti-unting kinabukasan ko'y magniningning

hawak ngayo'y tibay ng damdamin

Bukas naman sa aking paggising

Kapiling ko'y pangarap na bituin

Ilang sulok ng lupa, may kubling nalulumbay?

Mga sanay sa isang kahig, isang tukang pamumuhay

isang lingon sa langit, nais magbagong-buhay

Sa ating mga palad nakasalalay ang ating bukas

Unti-unting mararating kalangitan at bituin

Unti-unting kinabukasan ko'y magniningning

hawak ngayo'y tibay ng damdamin

Bukas naman sa aking paggising

Kapiling ko'y pangarap na bituin...oh

Unti-unting mararating kalangitan at bituin

Unti-unting kinabukasan ko'y magniningning

hawak ngayo'y tibay ng damdamin

bukas naman sa aking paggising

Kapiling ko'y pangarap na bituin

Bukas naman sa aking paggising

Kapiling ko'y pangarap na bituin

Junior premieres tomorrow, June 14, 2006 only here at Angelic Eyes

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2006-05-01T15:31:00.000+08:00

hoo!!! i am so back in blogger!!!....now all I gotta do is to put make-up on this blog...wait for it okay?!